im stupid. but i did what i felt right. i fell for him. and shit hit the fan last night. and were not talking. just because i got jealous. of a “friend” hittin on him and him reciprocating. it was like A TRIGGER. i acted like the jealous crazy chick that i would make fun of at the bars. i became that person. and now were fighting, not talking, not hanging out and i feel WEIRD. i feel lost. but i cant apologize. cuz I’M TIRED OF APOLOGIZING. i wish things were going to be okay. but they are not going to be for awhile. imma stuggle. and imma hate it. imma hate myself and imma hate him. i can actually say…imma lil bit heartbroken.